Adult children

Here I am posting about my family again lol. We've managed to have some good times together but two of my children are well, how should I put it, extremely rude and disrespectful to me. I wonder how I could make sense of which part of this is my own wounds and which part of this is actually them being assholes. If I reflect on the past 6 years since my grandson was born I can't think of a time that my older son was kind caring or empathetic with me. My daughter has been just a nightmare. She's calmed down quite a bit since she got this new boyfriend. She actually got me a Mother's Day gift last year. However, she also tripped me while we were trick or treating randomly pinched me if I said something she didn't like, and most recently kicked me in the side because I said something she didn't like. My older son called me an asshole because I said something I shouldn't have. I will admit that

Now that I read this I see it's actually abuse

And my 6 year old grandson is on adhd medication. I cant even watch whats happening to him

I suppose if I didn't have all my previous trauma my children wouldn't be in this state. Not to blame myself but it certainly did add fuel to the situation

I dont know how to repair these relationships

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